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       Raskolnikov's judgement is clouded by fury and determination as he storms off to the pawnbrokers home. He carelessly enters the home and kills the old lady along with Lizaveta without a second thought. It was not until the apartment floor was covered with blood that Raskolnikov realized the severity of his actions. Before leaving, Raskolnikov takes off his cross and throws it onto the dead corpse, making it clear that he is willing to live a life separated from God. At this moment Raskolnikov was overcome by panic and rushed out of the apparment hiding the minimal evidence that remained on his body. Raskolnikov's first concern was that others would soon figure out about his monstrous actions and rumors along with judgement would spread quickly. Although Raskolnikov did an outstanding job at keeping his murder a secret, it seemed as if he was trying to reveal his secret to anyone around him. He constantly contradicted himself; while spending so much time hiding all evidence and avoiding being anywhere related to the crime, Raskolnikov also tried to expose the truth about the crime. The guilt kept increasing and eventually became too much to bear. Raskolnikov self-consciously tried to expose himself by writing articles related to the crime and openly admitting his hate and desire to murder the pawnbroker to others around him. Raskolnikov wanted others to know what he was capable of, but most importantly, Raskolnikov was desperate for help. He was too prideful to admit his sins in the first place,  so turing back to God at this moment would be too shameful. This increasing guilt caused Raskolnikov's metal insanity. His "sickness" drew attention to himself and friends and family became concerned. Not knowing where to turn, Raskolnikov pushed all of them away knowing that they would be in disbelief if they ever discovered that he was a murderer. As Raskolnikov lost touch with everyone who ever cared about him, including God, he decided to run away. He believed that running away from his problems would ultimately make the pain and guilt go away as well. Raskolnikov went out to seek the only person who remained in his life at the moment, Sonya. He confessed to the crime and later begged her to run away with him. When he realized that she was hesitant to leave, he picked up a Bible and asked her to read the Biblical passage of Lazarus to him. Shocked by his demands, Sonya picked up the book and read the passage to Raskolnikov. After she finishes the reading Raskolnikov left immediately. Although he never mentions anything about the passage it is implied that Raskolnikov clearly sees a connection between himself and Lazarus. In this passage, Lazarus is a dead man who is miraculously raised from the dead by Jesus himself. Raskolnikov relates this passage to his relationship with Sonya. Sonya acts like a Christ figure towards Raskolnikov. She begins to fill his life with love and humility once again and prays for Raskolnikov's resurrection from a life full of sin.